just kept me thinking.
sometimes i think i really cannot take the stress, cannot cope with things.

i don't know if i can cont to be the IC for the POP.
theres things that are left undone.
im deciding if i should drop the performance.
but will the seniors be utterly discouraged?
if i do that wont they be disappointed?
i really dont know.
and if i really decide to do that.
what will the others say?
i will just say. sorry to all my seniors. i have no choice but i will decide to drop about the performance.
im sorry..


secondly.
drill com. its rather disasterous.
cuz we havent even start planning on the steps for the pd/ cd.
i wonder how we grab the time to do.
and we barely have much time to train our squad too. this week is fully packed for us.
and i never have full strength before.
someone help!


thirdly. i dont know how to handle my problems now.
financially.mentally. emotionally.
i just seemed to break down rather often.
my mum's health isnt that good either. where could i get the money to let her see the doc?
my piano.
should i forget about it?
well.
i really dont know.
its always me who is the one whos spending the money.
its always my fault at home. =/



i need a shoulder to cry on.