YSunday, July 06, 2008' 5:52 PM
brokened.went to church tdy.
well.. as usual bahs.
tdy had choir.
and i totally screwed it up.
i felt really disappointed in myself. what was i doing?
then went out for lunch.
then well.
stayed back to help ezekiel to give out flyers?
yeap.
then went back to church to teach bear piano.
then started singing choir songs.
the memories.
then went home with anqi.
To:__
i'm really disappointed that you did this to me tdy. you pushed me down the "slide" from that weird playground. and my knees hurt. my joints hurt too. do you think it was funny when you pushed me down? did you ever think of the consequences if i just fell. there was no handle or a grab for me. and you just pushed. and laughed. it hurted me so much. and the way you disiao me. was never right. im sorry. but this was how i felt.
i felt really disappointed in myself. whats wrong with me? why do i just suddenly stop playing. what was i thinking? i didnt think . i really went blanked out. total disappointment. i think im total useless. who can i tell to? it seems that i lost trust to people again. and im losing their trust.
i just want to go out to pour everything out to someone.
