decided to do abit of self reflection all of a sudden.

what had i gone through this few weeks.
hmmm.
was rather emotional at times.
cuz i could just suddenly break down.
things that actually had happened :
had dengue symptons. (this was the only one which i didnt cry for)
dad nearly died in a car accident.
friendship problems.
between family.
financial problems.
GB. ( its always the one. )

did i told anyone?
nope.
i suddenly find myself being shutted.
didnt want to tell.
cuz suddenly i became distant to alot of people.
and i cant seem to talk to them again.
cuz im starting to be afraid.
and i never really shared the things mentioned above to them.
to those (actually one or two) that i once mentioned things to them. i dont anymore.
cuz sometimes being to distant away makes me feel that they are just hi bye friends.
not those that i could talk to. D :
oh well.
it may be my own problem.
im sorry though ( if i did anything offensive to you here or else where )

had i go to God?
not really.
i actually side tracked too much this few weeks.
and i could really forget to do quiet time.

right now. am i alright.?
im really not sure myself.
sometimes i seemed to be ok.
but im not?
i dont know.
im still struggling.
perhaps i may want to change _____.
but then,
i cant seem to do it.
contradiction.