somewhat i just felt like crying suddenly.
i dont know why.
but i just want to.

thinking of my life right now.
it doesnt make sense.
happy sad?

people do get emo.
and i was like saying.
hmm
nowadays people are getting emo.
wonder if they are ok.
but well.
i dont want to be emo.
but i just feel like being quiet.
yet i need to talk?

i suddenly think of vivian.
she was like saying that shes going to die in 160808
because she dreamt about it?
and shes going for national camp?
and she mentioned its between that day.
then she will have parachute jump on that day and die.
this wont be true. right?

thinking of my current relationship with people right now.
am i hurting them?
or they misunderstood me?
i really dont know.
and i have this mixed feeling inside.

what if i just suddenly break down?
wont i cry for no reason?
sometimes i feel that life is really short.
sometimes.
really fast like some bullet train.

and i came across with this song beautiful saviour.
my very first song that i sang infront of a mic 1on1.
this song really impacted me alot.

and im rather thankful that God had pulled me to school everyday for some way or another.
im not the one whos once scared of going to sch.
im gonna face everything that is gonna happen.
but plus, though im scared of people in sch still, and not mentioning church too.
cuz i still got this feeling that they dislike me some way or another.
but i will move on.

feel super mixed up.
people still seem to misunderstand. haiz.

oh wells.