tdy was tiring.
for SOME time i didnt do drill.
abit RUSTY. xP



anyways.
tdy morning was very BORING.
nothing much to do.
then during assembly painted the CANVAS thingy.
its scary but FUN.
haha!
anyhow paint but the outcome is rather NICE. : D



then later on.
after sch was SCOLDED badly by miss lim.
woah.
like all the sec2 and 3s.
luckily i handed up.


then later on had drill.
finally learnt CD.
haha.
yea.
but i guess they are actually doing quite well.
though they are not serious and have no sense of urgency.
which i will be STRICT.
by not playing with them.
may want to scold them.
but will scared i laugh when i scold.
oh well.

then after that HIGH with the sq tooters xD
haha!
and its rather FUN.
not FUN.
but SUPER.
xD
loving squad two every moment now xD

then homed.

i have no sch tmr xD
which is actually a good thing.
but i want to go out with someone to talk and chat.
about many many stuff xD

some one DATE me out tmr pls!
im gonna be rotting to death at home.
which i dont want too Dx
theres not SCHOOL.
which is a good thing.
bad thing.
rotting at home and grow FAT.
NO WAY.

suddenly i started to think.
about everything that i had done for the past eight months?
well.
there were many downs.
and they were all very hurtful.
but it got me stronger.
i got to know who was trustable.
whos not.
who should i hang out more.
while those i shouldnt.

really dislike the downs.
especially in _____.
it hurts me alot when its under there.
cuz these were the people that i trusted.
but now.
its sort of gone.

i know im childish.
i just cant figure it out.
and it kept me thinking.
why am i always the one whos the one saying sorry.
its because.
i dont want to fight.
i just want to have a peaceful environment.
like.
i just want to be FRIENDS with everyone around me.

and then.
to SUPER WUPER SIX.
im really thankful that i wasnt part of you guys.
and i got to learn many things.
when you guys hurt me alot.
especially when you all said i flirt in OBS.
im like.
i really did?
and why cant i follow the guys when YOU all were the ones who like PS me.
and i didnt say anything.
but im thankful.
atleast i know.
you all are NOT the set of friends that im looking for.
currently i think you all may think that im prawling to seniors again.
just because that both DIs are found in me and rachel's squad.
please.
have the initiative to ask.
and next.
i believe that xt have the potential.
and i dont hate her.
you guys may just be jealous over her cuz shes exceling in council and gb.
but she have proven it.
i really dont understand.
and i can see that shes proving it.
argh.

but more the less.
im thankful.
that im not with you guys.

haiz.
heart to heart chat friend where are you?

i dont knw.
is my _____ still belonging to there? or i have changed.
angry with myself for being so childish, irritating etcetc.
hate it.
im just not me.