YSunday, September 21, 2008' 5:15 PM
went to church in the morning.
and i felt sick.
cuz.
it came Dx.
but its rather i sigh of relief ;D
then had bad stomach aches and so on.
then service was quite boring.
i just felt like crying.
i wasnt listening to the talk.
my heart and mind was somewhere else.
then lunched, but not much appetite.
ate chendol, and regretted Dx
and i think i had mood swings.
went back to church and study.
did bits and pieces of POA.
and i balance xD
then went to play piano.
then later on me and sylvia was BORED.
so went to amk hub.
i still rmb that i told her that my instinct is that i will see someone from church in amk hub.
then I REALLY SAW.
and i was : eh, that guy from our church.
pauses.
then OH MY.
MY INSTINCT.
hahaha!
walked and walked and both of us got HUNGRY.
so went back to market thats near church and started munching.
ate mayo chicken xD
then after that back to church and went to play piano.
then after that she sent me HOME.
her parents de car xD
thanks!
JOANN .
PLEASE DO WELL FOR SHOUTING THE COMMAND FOR THE WHOLE WEEK.
i already loose quite ABIT of faith in you. but just do your best. i really cant help you now.
a rather depressing day. why is this still affecting me. whats wrong. its so long ago, yet i just cant seem to not think of it almost everyday. its never once that i could peacefully let it go. and im scared. really really scared. sometimes i just dont want to touch the piano. at all. i never liked school ever since so many things happened. OBS and more. its never a FUN thing to go to. it just brings me all the bad memories. i just knew that im the one whos always being hated. always and forever will be the one.
