its affecting me Dx.
it affects me rather badly until i cant study.
i still cant believe it had happened.
and im feeling sad bout it.
cuz she didnt really accept christ.
everytime just say that she too tired and stuff.
then dont want to go to church.

and right now.
she just lay at the coffin.
motionless.

whoever had pushed her down, or whoever who chase after her.
and made her fell down the 13th floor.
im never ever gonna forget you.

you made my cousin's life miserable.
and i see the state of my nephew and niece.

dear Lord, the only thing i can do to help them is just to pray.
Lord i hope you would strengthen them.
i pray that after this LESSON, they will come infront to you .
and i hope they would be able to go to church.
and may you give me the courage to talk to them.
so that i may be able to bring them to church.
and Lord, i hope i can do something else other than praying for them.
i hope i could cheer them up.
if not.
i really feel hopeless.
in jesus name i pray.
amen.

DxDxDx

tmr is her cremation day.
and i cant attend.
cuz i have exams.
but i doubt i will be able to concentrate this time.
when im having my exams.
its the midst of the ceremony.
i think i might break and cry during the exams.
Dx
and after the cremation, they are gg to set her ashes in the sea.
and thats the end.
its better though.
her body is really rather DISFIGURED.
i mean.
her head got like some skull broken.
the head looks really jaggered.
i dont know.
but its really does not like her.
she looks not complete.
her head looks as though theres something popping out on her forehead.

im NOT gonna forget.
and im NOT gonna forgive.
im trying my best to forgive.
but right now.
i dont think so.
eh!
that person,
no.
MURDERER.
OWN UP.