gotta be strong from now on. : D
i realised family is really in a very poor state now.
left like $ 30 bucks for mummy for the week to survive.
and her pays would only be given like around 7,8 or even 9.
and im like getting alot of allowance.
i gotta keep using alot of allowance.
she gave me 10 bucks everyday.
and shes saving herself.
like not buying or spending.
now, its my turn to do it.
she gave me 40 bucks for four days.
i gave her 10 bucks back.
which makes 30.
and i will try my best to use if like for 5 days.
i know its rather difficult for me.
but i will try my best to. : /
so at least i know i got 6 bucks to spend everyday.
im not gonna be lazy in my studies.
but i will try and work hard.
even though its difficult.

i pray that Lord you will carry me through this difficult situation.
i know mummy is really a good person.
though sometimes i argue with her.
but i will try not.
to learn to have more endurance.
cousin, nephew and niece will probably stay at my house.
and shes just spending her own 30 bucks on letting them stay and eat here.
i appreciate her good will.
which is like she will help others.
she will think others.
and not herself. D :

and dad is really .
cant stand it.
i can forget it about not giving money to the family.
but atleast dont take MORE away right.
you dont even care for the house.
dont even care how tiring mummy is.
no wonder mummy wants me to change the address for my POSB.
why make our life so complicated.
owing credits and stuff.
i just cant understand.

Lord.
carry me through.
you will be at my side.
right?